Bittersweet Fiction

Chapter 26 is failing miserably.

Let me wallow in that for just a moment.

I have never in my writing history, has as much trouble with a chapter as I have with this. It scares me just a little. I keep writing and rewriting, reworking and reworking, deleting words and adding them. It makes me want to cry. I know what I want to say but I just don’t know.

I think it has a lot to do with the death of a guy I went to school with recently. It seems to really draw out the emotions of this chapter so well, and I’m not sure if I can make the progress after Cedric’s death reasonable. I think I have written myself into a rather large hole when it comes to Katie and Cedric’s relationship. We’ll see though. Hopefully the easter weekend will provide ample time to actually get this chapter finished. Otherwise it may kill me.

Ciao baby.

Have spent another half day writing and rewriting chapter 26. It is coming along very slowly and in all honestly is almost going backwards. I read over what I had written last night, and while it was emotional and well written, it is starting to get too heavy, too bogged down in emotion and themes that are getting recycled over and over. You lot knew from last chapter how important Cedric was to Katie and I don’t think that four weeks on from his death she would be in the same place. I had her walking around like a complete zombie, which frankly isn’t a bad thing, it just made it seem to drab and too “Oh I’m mourning.” I may come to regret this when I get the reviews but did you really need 10,000 words of dreary teary crap? I didn’t think so.

SO I’ve added another few thousand words to the start and brightened it up again. After all, a baby has just been born and it’s time for some joy. And Katie and Oliver need to define everything. I needed to do that in a light hearted manner instead of the teary stuff i have produced in the past. It is so strange to realize that I have been writing this story for years. I feel like the characters have grown with me, even  though they aren’t really my characters. I am always planning little scenes and speeches in my head and I am definately going to miss that. I think that is why it is getting so hard to write the ending. It has to be good for so many reasons.

1) I want it to end well and seem like the story actually went somewhere. They has been a lot of plotlines crammed into this fella. Sometimes it got a little overwhelming I know, but they all seemed to so natural and so unpredicatable. Just when you think Oliver’s here to stay, BAM! Lindsay’s back etc. It was great fun.

2) I always like to keep open the possibility of a sequel. I mean this story itself was unplanned but because I enjoyed writing “Totally Clueless” I couldn’t just leave it all there.  I have a bit of a cliffhanger planned but I’m not sure how that will actually go…. I might throw it in anyway just to cause a stir.

Okay, enough is enough. I need to get back to the chapter. I start university again in 5 days and I want to have this chapter done before I get distracted by creative writing classes and advertising assignments.